There's some new stuff here....I have been adding posts that I previous only recorded in my journal in a effort to fill in some blank spots from the past six months...I intend to try to keep up with this little man's comings and goings - if that is possible! Enjoy...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Smiley Face!

Silas has started to give me some full on smiles. Today while I was changing him he was looking at me and grinning as if to say "I know you!" It really was the best - especially after having several very challenging, cry filled nights with him, his little smile felt like a huge reward! I was happy to catch this on on camera.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Seriously Silas

After some talk and consideration I have come to the conclusion that I need to rename this blog...not that he is not a's just that to call him 'sweet' is a little generic. And what I am finding out about this guy is that he is anything but that! He's as fierce as a lion, and hungry as a bear and beautiful as a cherub and as complex as algebra - he's a hard nut to crack. So to call him sweet is just a little to much like calling him simple, or straightforward, which he is not. So I hereby christen this blog Seriously just makes more sense.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Totally in Love

As we get to know him more, we are all having our love moments with Silas. Just when it seems like I am having a most challenging time with him, like having a two hour, 4:00 am cry festival with him, I have a moment or series of moments when I find myself falling more and more in Love with him. I think Willow is having some of these moments too. But just look at him...I mean what's not to Love?

Daddy Love

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Eyes, eyes, eyes....

Silas seems to be settling into his world a lot more now. He is seeing and looking at everything as though for the first time...oh, wait a second, it probably is his first time! That's why he looks so darn beautiful! At Grandma's house today he was holding his head, turning towards the voices that he recognized...looking at the trees i the yard. I even put him on his little smiley guy toy in the living room today and he stayed there for a long time - at least 20 minutes. He stared out the window, looked at the aquarium and hit at the dangle-y toys hanging above him. He really seemed to like it! I had to worry a bit more about Willow being too excited with the new toy-thing in the living room than him being on his own on it. she is a good big sister, though, very curious but not too violent, which is good(...but I do keep a close eye on her still). Silas is doing a great job of moving his head around, holding it up and even starting to push himself up while on his tummy! He is just so strong for a 5 week old! It is amazing!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Last Day of Summer

The weather has been absolutely beautiful so we try to take advantage of it by taking our after dinner family neighborhood strolls. Silas loves to look at the trees from his cozy sling.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

One Month Old!

Silas is now a month old! How quickly the time has passed, never to return. Fleeting. I am in a state of surrender, knowing that as I try so hard to hold onto and capture some of these precious moments with him, I 'miss' a moment with Willow, or Adam or myself. What a catch 22. I have found myself letting got of any desires or wants of my own, trying to hold onto every and any quiet moment i can get with him. Time is passing. My garden is almost finished for the season. Adam will be back to work in 2 days. I am sad. I wish we could just be together as a family all the time...sharing every beautiful moment, every sweet smile - which are coming more and more frequent in the past 2-3 days. I've almost caught one on film here. One of his first smiles...hard to catch because I am so busy marveling at him, and visioning how he might look in the future, smiling. And also hard to capture because they usually occur while he is sleeping.

I took Silas to the health unit today to weigh him and was utterly amazed to find that he was 13 lbs, 5 oz! That means he has gained almost 4 lbs in 4 weeks! A pound a week! That's a big eatin' little man! I knew he was big and getting chubbier, but I had no idea it was that much! I should have known..some mornings, after him munching all night long, I swear, I would look at him and I could see that he looked chubbier!

It was great to have our final visit with our Doula, Loree, this week. She gave us so many goodies: an outfit for Silas (size 9 months - which fits him already!), a full, detailed account of his birth story from her perspective (very humorous and insightful), an"I'm a big sister" book for Willow and a very precious album of the pictures of Silas's first moments on earth. It was wonderful to sit and recall every detail of the birth journey with someone who was there. Someone whose soul purpose was to support us and encourage me and enhance my entire birth experience. I have been reflecting a lot on his birth and have been awash with happiness, pride and a true feeling of accomplishment that I was able to have the experience that I hoped for in such opposing circumstances. Silas, little man, you are a unique and precious soul bringing us a whole new onslaught of wonder, amazement, and joy to our lives. Watching your awakening into this world is nothing short of pure magic! Your amazing arrival has completed our family and I feel truly blessed to be your Mum!

Friday, September 11, 2009

Strathcona Park

We decided that we needed to focus on fun today, so instead of getting everyone packed up and out the door to do groceries or other chores, we threw a picnic lunch in a bag and headed to the park. It was great! School started up again this week so we found ourselves to be the only people in the park! It was wonderfully quiet and sunny. Silas and I sat in a shady spot on a blanket while Willow and Adam had fun on the playground. I loved watching them and could see how much Willow has grown in the past month. But seeing her next to her Dad, she still looks so small and sweet...then I look at Silas and see what small really is...and he's a big little guy! Ahhh, it is so easy to get into a beautiful park like space here...less than 10 minutes in the car and it's all for the taking. Such a sweet morning!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Funny Faces

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


Silas is three weeks old! I can see that he is 'awakening' from his sleepy newborn state. his eyes are opening for longer periods and I know that he is beginning to actually see. He has been looking at the aquarium or out the window or at the ceiling fan and settles his gaze on them for a while. He stares right into my eyes when i am nursing him and it is like pure love. I read that newborns his age can see a distance of about 9 inches, which is about the length between our faces when he is coincidence, I am sure! He can do a pretty good job of holding his head up...some bobbling still, but he can swing it around to look at different faces and things. He has even been grabbing and holding the little toys that i have on the change table. It is amazing...i think about how I have been through this experience with Willow and now I realize how quickly this time will pass... how precious it is. And unlike with Willow, I don't have the luxury of spending endless moments staring at him...although I am definitely taking advantage of as many of those moments as I can while Adam is home. I've got him for another week and then the three of us will be on our own...yikes! For the past two days I have had a two hour nap with Silas in the afternoon...such a luxury!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Big Ideas...

Monday, September 7, 2009

Sunshine Silas

At our favorite cafe yesterday...what a sunshine guy....

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Thursday, September 3, 2009


We decided to get out of town for a couple of days while we had the chance, with Adam being off and all. So we headed up to Edmonton to visit with Thom and Kirsten and their new little guy, Hayden, who arrived the day after Silas. It was good to get a change of scenery and hang out with other folks who are feeling the new baby/zombie effect as well. We had a fun day hanging out at the Alberta Museum...the nicest part of which was the chillin' picnic on the grounds