Well, I was glad to have Silas's costume on him for all of 10 minutes on Halloween. It's a good thing that I made it two years ago for Willow and it had another chance to hit the spotlight this year. I have a firm Halloween policy of my children dressing up as a cute pumpkin when they are babies...next year he can help to choose his costume. I put him in his sling to go out trick or treating so the pumpkin had to go. I thought that he would just be snoozing, but it was cool to see that he was awake and checking out what all the excitement was about. As it got darker, the decorative lights and glowing pumpkins were of great interest to him.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Today little Silas held onto his giraffe toy and manoeuvred it into his mouth. It may have been a bit of a fluke, but he has been doing an awful lot of fist munching these days which makes me think that those teeth must be putting a lot of pressure onto his gums. I have tried to give him a soother, which he is not into so I do hope that for the sake of his little fists, the giraffe gets more use.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Silas enjoys any time he can get outside. He stares at the trees and sky and of course, his big sister. We took the opportunity to get a little yard work done today and enjoy the crisp, blue sky. I like these pics of him because I cam get a real good look at his eyes, which look a lot like mine, blue with that darker blue outline.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
It is so hard to find the time to write...doubled by the fact that I put pressure on myself to write the ultimate documenting journal entries, I am not surprised that I just can't seem to get 'er done. But, like my Mom told me, I am going to have to get used to accomplishing things in 15 minute segments because I may never find myself with larger chunks of time for a while. I wanted to write a 2 month update for Silas and here it is already 6 days overdue. The changes happening in him are so rapid, it is next to impossible to keep up. Add to the that the fact that time seems to be traveling at warp ten around here and bang, a week can pass in what feels like a blink of he eye. I am very pleased to say that the crying has subsided a lot. As he becomes more able to see and comprehend his surroundings he seems a lot more at ease. The fact that I now understand many of his cries and what they are communicating to me helps me to be able to settle him as well. He is content now to sit and watch Willow play or whatever action or drama is taking place at the moment. I can see when he is very tired, he tends to cry very intensely for a moment or two (or five) before his little eyes roll into the back of his head and he passes out. He also seems to be a very good self soother, he spends a lot of time sucking and rubbing his little fists on his gums these days...the beginnings of teething already! I can see why crying is a very important mechanism for this little guy...gotta make sure you don't get lost in all the chaos! And because of this I am very happy that he sleeps in our bed. That means that I have the entire evening after Willow goes to sleep, the night time and a little time in the morning before it all gets going again to devote solely to him. That incredibly special communication that takes place while he is nursing, we stare into each others eyes....or while sleeping he will reach out his hand and lightly rest it against my side....it is really, really precious. I swear, I get the most smiles and gurgles when he is on is change table getting changed....I guess for him this is his special, uninterrupted time with Mom. Of course, I carry him around in the sling everywhere so it is great to see him super alert, holding his head like a 4 month pro, interested in his surroundings. We went to a craft sale at the cypress centre and he was looking everywhere, wide eyed at all of the brightly lit displays and crowds of people from the cuddly safety of his sling....until he, in his exhaustion, just snuggled in and went to sleep. In quiet moments at home, I realize that once you have created that safe, cozy, home environment for one child, it is actually not that difficult to bring another child into it. That said, I think two is a great number. I guess I am figuring out the groove of balancing these two and although there is a lot of chaos, there are also times of smooth sailing and plenty of heartwarming laughs and loving exhaustion. I do love what Silas has brought us, it feels like we have a truly 'real' family now.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Those smiles are in abundance now...those dancing eyes, little gurgles, grins....I think that Silas will be a very happy little guy, as soon as he out grows all the crying! I am beginning to suspect that he might be an early teether with all of his fussing. But, in between it all he smiles happily at me and my heart just melts.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Today was the first time that Silas was awake for story time at the library. Willow has been going to this program since she was 4 months old and she loves it. Today Silas is almost 8 weeks old - he had his eyes wide open, looking all around and even smiling at a couple of other kids. He is so strong and healthy and bright eyed...he is just so easy to love...which is very good because it kind of makes up for the all night milk-wakies that he has been doing for the past several nights. Mommy is a delirious zombie, but at least my babies are adorable!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
I become more and more enchanted with this little guy everyday. It is a lot of work taking care of two little people, and at times this week, I have felt extremely ragged, totally exhausted and completely shattered, but on some level it is actually easier than I though it might be. I just remind myself that my only job is to love my kids and any stress that I may be feeling kind of falls away. The stress is usually due to outside expectations - the "I shoulds..." Like, "I should be cleaning the kitchen" or " I should be updating my blogs...." Those things are never really very important. What is important is staring into this beautiful face, gazing into these gorgeous eyes, catching one of those elusive but dazzling smiles.